“A” for Alison, “A” for Anonymous (2021 Thoughts Added)

Warning: This post contains Pretty Little Liars spoilers. If you haven’t watched the whole show, then proceed with caution.

A little note: In August 2014, I started watching Pretty Little Liars. That November, I started blogging about it until it ended in 2017. I haven’t watched it since, but people are still reading my posts in 2021. So, I’ve decided to add thoughts and comments based on the feelings and opinions I have in 2021. Because you’re reading this now, I want to thank you! Tbh, after the disappointment of the series finale, I felt like I wasted time writing these posts. Because you’re reading this, it doesn’t feel like a waste anymore. So, thanks!

(Unless otherwise noted, parenthesis indicate thoughts from 2021)

**Originally published on February 10, 2015. Republished on March 30, 2021. Yes, on a Tuesday in honor of the show originally airing on Tuesdays.**

Alison’s Army

For a while now, I’ve been formulating a theory that there are two “A-Teams” in the world of Pretty Little Liars. Until now, I’ve felt like I haven’t enough evidence to support my theory. Now, I do. Alison has an army, but it is not the “A-Team.” Alison’s Army is a group of people who have been doing things per her request since the very beginning of the series. These people are Noel Kahn, CeCe Drake, Mike Montgomery, and most likely others.

In the first season, Noel Kahn tried to get close to Aria Montgomery. He might have liked her for real. He might not have. I suspect he was working for Alison since the very beginning. Throughout the whole Noel Kahn loves Aria Montgomery plot, he was trying to get rid of Ezra. Could it be possible this was because Alison asked him to do it? Maybe, Alison put him up to it because she knew that Ezra was using Aria and the other girls to write a book. She at least knew he knows who Aria was all along. And she likely suspected his intentions with Aria were less than honorable. When Noel was watching Hanna and Aria at that cupcake shop, I suspect that he was watching out for Hanna. I think Alison wanted to make sure she didn’t go as far as she had once upon a time. (You know, despite the fact it was pretty much her fault Hanna did what she did, to begin with.)

In season three, CeCe Drake showed up at The Brew, where the girls almost always hang out. Why, of all the places in Rosewood, would we be introduced to CeCe Drake at The Brew? Why would she be quoting word for word something that Alison said in another episode? I suspect it’s because Alison sent CeCe to Rosewood to test the girls. I suspect in the beginning because she hurt them more than anyone else, Alison thought “A” was one of the girls. Then, after seeing “A” taunt them so much, I suspect Alison realized that none of them were “A,” but she wanted to make sure. So, she sent CeCe to Rosewood to test the girls. I suspect Alison assumed the girls would see CeCe as a future version of Alison. That however they treated CeCe would be the same way they would treat Alison if she came back. When the girls decided to be civil with CeCe, it showed they were still loyal to Alison.

Finally, in this season, Mike Montgomery has been acting super sketchy. Naturally, everyone wonders if Mike is “A.” I’ll be honest, I started to think it a little bit, but now I’m not so sure… actually I am. I am very sure that Mike is not on the “A-Team.” That would be too obvious since we know “A’s” identity will stay a secret until at least halfway through season six. Second, Mike is the younger brother who used to be dorky but is now kind of hot. So, we kind of like the “bad boy cred,” but we also want him to stay the sweet and innocent younger brother forever. Then, of course, there are the actual reasons he would not be “A.”
Despite his anger and communication issues with Aria, he does care about her. You can see their sibling bond play out over and over again throughout the series. (It’s like that quote from “Cheaper by the Dozen” by Hilary Duff’s character. “Sometimes I may want to kill you but I will always kill for you.”) In any case, he has been talking to Alison and communicating with Cyrus, aka Hank Mahoney, as of late. And that leads me to believe he is part of Alison’s Army.

Also, in season one, when Noel was threatening to turn Ezra in, we saw Mike and Noel talking in the courtyard. We were led to believe that Noel told Mike “someone” was dating Aria’s favorite teacher, Ezra Fitz. Mike is not stupid. If that were all Noel told him, he would have fit the pieces together. He would have realized Aria was the one dating her teacher. I suspect Noel and Mike knew long before this incident that Aria and Ezra were dating. I suspect Alison told them. She wanted to make sure they were both keeping an eye on Aria, in case Ezra broke her heart.

The “A-Team”

We all know Mona is still alive; she’s been missing for far too long to be anything but alive. The only thing we can trust in PLL is that anyone who’s been missing for longer like one episode is still alive. So, Mona is for sure still alive and well, or at least alive. How do we know this? Who was the one to help Alison escape and hide for two years? Mona. Mona helped Alison escape and Mona is the one who did not tell anyone Alison was still alive. Instead, she played dumb to the whole situation. Is it so unbelievable that Mona would do the same for herself? I don’t think so. Mona’s reasons for hiding are likely different from Alison’s reasons for hiding. Think about it. Who in Rosewood would ever suspect Mona of being “A” after she was already put in Radley for it? Very few would suspect that! And that is why it’s such a brilliant plan! Mona allowed the girls and police to discover the truth so no one would ever suspect her again! It was her plan all along. That way she could get into Radley and work on far more elaborate plans than what we saw in seasons one and two.

Jason DeLaurentis may be the sketchiest person in Rosewood! He spent his high school years drinking beer and getting high. He also started the NAT club with some friends so they could spy on unsuspecting girls. He claims he can’t remember anything that happened “that night.” He was missing for Alison’s funeral and much of the first season. He had stalker-like pictures in his shed of Aria sleeping. He may or may not have genuine feelings for Aria. And her main “A drama” revolves around her relationship with Ezra. He may or may not have caused trouble with Emily on that elevator. He’s been conversing with Mona. He’s slept with Ashley Marin. He is generally a very sketchy guy.

Wren Kingston is also super sketchy. He’s one of the many men in Rosewood who cannot seem to resist his attraction to young high school girls. (Again. Gross. What is wrong with Rosewood men? The fathers cheat and the twenty-somethings fool around with high school girls. There are so many things wrong with Rosewood and this ranks at the top.) We know very little about him or his past. He has already shown that he is comfortable breaking medical laws. He gave Melissa strong medications for Ian. Then, he let CeCe Drake and Hanna Marin into Radley Sanatorium without identification. He also seemed to be pretty close to Mona while she was in Radley. The dude’s a creep. (Side note: I also always liked the idea of him being “A.”)

Double Agents

Every good mystery has a few double agents. Double agents are the people willing to work with or for both sides of the war. They’re gathering and passing information from one or both sides to anyone who wants it. And they want to save themselves from incriminating information any side has on them. We know Caleb Rivers, Toby Cavanaugh, and Spencer Hastings have been double agents. We also know Ezra Fitz has technically been a double agent. He was spying on the girls as much as, if not more than “A” him/herself. Despite his feelings for Aria, he did use their intimacy to gather information for a book. But, he also used that information, in the end, to keep them safe.

Lucas Gottesman may have also been a double agent. He was the victim of many of Alison’s cruel jokes. So, he has every reason in the world to hate her and work against her on the “A-Team.” For the same reasons, he has every reason in the world to hate Mona and work against the “A-Team.” So, it is fair to assume he’s been a double agent since the beginning, or at least since he tried drowning Hanna in the lake. We know “A” recruited him to try to get rid of Hanna. He more or less confessed that himself. But we can also assume he has likely been protecting the girls in some ways as well. I mean, he’s pretty much in love with Hanna and love makes you do the craziest of things. (Actually, love doesn’t make you do crazy things. Lust makes you do crazy things. And there were way more lust and infatuation vibes from Lucas to Hanna than love.)

If anyone is, Jenna Marshall is definitely a double agent. We know she has a lot of anger toward Alison and the other girls for blinding her. We’ve also seen her try to put that behind her many times. We know she worked against the girls to find the flash drive that held her darkest secret on film. But we also know that she claimed in the Christmas episode she was working with Alison now. If that’s true, it’s safe to assume wherever she is, if she is still alive, she is doing some kind of work for Alison so they can finally beat “A.”
If nothing else, Jenna is working with Alison because she knows the girls are sorry for blinding her. Especially Hanna, who pulled her out of Jason’s burning house.

Furthermore, I suspect Mike and Mona have acted as double agents as well, but in less obvious ways. They do/did have feelings for each other, but Mike knew that Mona was/is “A.” If she’s “A” and he knows, then he used their relationship to learn everything he could about her so he and Alison could defeat her. I think Mona eventually found out Mike was using her and that’s when and why she staged her death.

Of course, Mona may not still be “A.” She and Alison may be working together to bring down “A.” As much as they hate and fear each other, they hate and fear “A” even more. To be honest, though, my primary theory for Mona is that she is still on the “A-Team.”

In conclusion, I suspect there are two secret teams in Rosewood—“The A-Team” and “Alison’s Army,” aka “Redcoat.” I’ve been formulating this theory in my head since I finished watching season four a few months ago. It’s been driving me crazy to find out some kind of proof to back it up. Now I have found proof. And I cannot wait to find out more in the last few episodes of this season.

**2021 Thoughts** From what I can remember, and I haven’t watched PLL since it ended, I was sort of right with this theory. Not all the way of course, but the bones of the theory were pretty close to reality and I’m proud of that. I’m especially proud because the last few seasons were such a hot mess it wasn’t worth putting in so much effort. That said, people still reading these posts does make it a little worth it. So, thank you for reading. Thank you for justifying the insane about of time I put into writing these posts. Ha. Thank you also for giving me a reason to pull these up and edit them. It’s been fun!

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PLL s05e18: Recap and Review (2021 Thoughts Added)

Warning: This post contains Pretty Little Liars spoilers. If you haven’t watched the whole show, then proceed with caution.

A little note: In August 2014, I started watching Pretty Little Liars. That November, I started blogging about it until it ended in 2017. I haven’t watched it since, but people are still reading my posts in 2021. So, I’ve decided to add thoughts and comments based on the feelings and opinions I have in 2021. Because you’re reading this now, I want to thank you! Tbh, after the disappointment of the series finale, I felt like I wasted time writing these posts. Because you’re reading this, it doesn’t feel like a waste anymore. So, thanks!

(Unless otherwise noted, parenthesis indicate thoughts from 2021)

**Originally published on February 3, 2015. Republished on March 23, 2021. Yes, on a Tuesday in honor of the show originally airing on Tuesdays.**

What to say about tonight’s episode of Pretty Little Liars… It was extremely interesting. It’s been a while since we’ve seen any of the Liars’ parents. This time, we see Spencer’s mother talking to Alison’s lawyers. She wants to know everything she can about Alison and who may be questioned at the trial. Watching Mrs. Hastings from afar, Emily, Spencer, and Aria also see Holbrook walk into the police station. (So, that answers my 2021 question from past posts. Holbrook did show up again. I forgot. ha, ha.)

Inside The Brew, a random redhead introduces herself as Lesli, Mona’s friend from out of town. (Who the heck is Lesli? I do not remember this person.) At first, they’re intrigued, but quickly grow wary. Why is she talking about Mona as if she were the best friend who knew her better than anyone else? The last time an unknown friend showed up it was CeCe and they still don’t trust CeCe. (As we later find out, this distrust is completely justified on both parts. I do not remember Lesli, but I’m pretty sure she was untrustworthy. And if you’ve watched the entire series, then you know CeCe wasn’t, even though I wanted her to be!)

At the police station, Holbrook gathers his things while yelling at other officers. Caleb and Hanna overhear him.
He looks at them and says, “Perfect. Just perfect.” Then he walks away.
Hanna later tells the girls that Holbrook was suspended for inappropriate behavior. He was in a relationship with Alison and may have helped her cheat on her lie detector test.

Spencer goes through her mother’s papers and finds a list of people who have been visiting Alison in prison. One of the signatures both surprises and terrifies her so she goes to Aria to tell her that the signature was Mike’s. Naturally, Aria refuses to believe that Mike has been visiting Alison. She is the one who allegedly killed his girlfriend, but she agrees to confront him about it anyway.

When Hanna and Lesli go to Mona’s house together, Lesli picks up a book and asks Hanna if Mona ever talked to her about it. Hanna has a flashback of a time when Mona did talk to her about it. In the same flashback, Mona asks Hanna for three wishes. Then, she shares that if she could have any wish, she’d wish for a stopwatch. She would stop time and space so that she was the only one moving or doing anything. She would be able to spy on people without them knowing.
After the flashback, Hanna says, “Mona was always thinking. She just wasn’t thinking what we thought she was thinking.”

Hanna and Lesli walk into The Brew with Mona’s book and Mike is there. He notices that they have the book and gets defensive. He demands they give him the book so he can take it back to her house where it belongs. Hanna manages to calm him down and assure him that she will make sure to it put back where it belongs. After Mike walks away, Lesli tells Hanna that she was on the phone with Mona the night before her murder. She tells her that she heard a man’s voice over the phone telling her to get off the phone and talk to him. She is confident that it was Mike who was talking to Mona.

Hanna has another flashback of that night with Mona. In the flashback, Hanna asks Mona about Alison coming back and wonders if they would even notice her. Mona snaps that of course, they would notice her, even if she cut and colored her hair. They would be the ones she wouldn’t notice. She would be crazy and be locked into Radley “and no one gets out of there.” (I mean… Mona got out of there, so….)

While putting Mona’s book back, Hanna finds an audiotape hidden in the spine. She quickly leaves and someone follows her. While she’s driving, Hanna notices that it’s a cop car following her. She opens the car door, picks up a long tool of some sort, and walks toward the other car. No one is in the car but then Holbrook shows up behind Hanna.
He starts rambling, as if he’s drunk or insane, and asks, “How does a girl like Alison become a girl like Alison?”
He goes on about how, because of her, the career that looked so bright and promising was now ruined. Hanna calls him out and says that a man like him should have been able to resist the advances of a young girl. (Yes, exactly! What is wrong with the twenty-something “men” in Rosewood!? And why did we all act like it was okay!?) He goes on to say something about Tanner and how she knows everything.

The new male character, Jonny, talks to Spencer about something he’s making for The Brew for Ezra. Hw explains that he was “inspired by Rosewood. This whole town is strung together with whispers, secrets, and lies.” (Ain’t that the truth! The only explanation for us letting this show get away with so much is we wanted to know what the secrets and lies were! I know that’s why I was watching it. Still… I can’t believe I condoned so much! Normally, I stop watching something if nothing is redeeming about it. I guess since I binged 4 seasons in 2 days, it sort of all melded together and felt okay? I don’t know… still wrong though!)

The Liars listen to the tape of Bethany and she says, “she’s not the only one who can make plans.” The liars assume that it’s Alison that Bethany is speaking of, but of course, we can’t know for sure. At least, not yet.

Aria notices that Mike is leaving the house and follows him. She follows him to a bridge over a lake. To me, it looks like the one where Spencer confronted Melissa about the masks she had made. Mike takes a bag out of his pocket and leaves it on the railing of the bridge. When he walks away, Aria goes to inspect the bag and it appears to be a bag of gummy candies that he left for someone. Mike turns around and confronts Aria. She tells him not to come back and not to talk to Alison again.
He says, “Nobody’s giving me orders anymore.”
Then, he tells her, “Be careful going home through the woods.”

Mrs. Hastings tells Spencer the blood spot found near the barrel was Alison’s. (Okay… but did we learn what was inside?)

Hanna tells the Liars about her confrontation with Holbrook. They realize he doesn’t know half of the stuff they thought he knew. Both she and Spencer wonder if Mike has been the one helping Alison. Aria still doesn’t want to believe them and tells them that he won’t be seeing her anymore because she told him not to. Of course, Mike doesn’t listen and he does go to see Alison again. Discussing what they heard Bethany say on the recording, the girls suspect what happened in Alison’s back yard “that night,” was a trap… They just don’t know for whom or by whom.

In the final scene, we see that Liars were finally one step ahead of “A.” “A” goes into Mona’s room to find the recording but discovers that it’s gone.

Signed at the top of the list was “Sarah Hernando.” (What list? Did I forget to include that information? I’m so confused…) If you remember, there was a girl named Sarah who seemed to be a lot like Alison. She even disappeared the same day Alison disappeared. When her friends visited the Liars, we learned she was as likable and manipulative as Alison was. This could be nothing because that girl’s name was “Sara Harvey.” However, this could likely be the same girl. After all, it wouldn’t be the first time someone’s name got changed on the show. Wren Kingston’s original last name was “Kim,” and Toby Cavanaugh’s original name was “Marshall.” She might also be visiting with a fake name or it might simply be a random Sarah. It is a common name after all.

In the flashbacks of Hanna and Mona, it feels like we get two potential hints or clues. First, Hanna’s comment about Alison coming back in disguise might be a clue that Hanna knew Alison wasn’t dead. It could also mean Hanna knew about Alison’s “Vivian Darkbloom,” disguise. It wouldn’t be the first time one of the liars knew something about Alison and didn’t find it important enough to mention. Or maybe, Hanna was working with Alison? She could have even been spying on her as “A” or as Mona’s assistant. Who knows? Everything is possible right now. Also in the flashback, Mona talks about stopping time and spying on people. Is she hinting at being “A?”

The clip the liars hear is of Bethany talking about and to someone is quite sinister. The someone she is talking to is supposed to be a psychiatrist or something. The person she is talking about is suspected to be Alison. How can we know that though? We can’t right now. For all we know, she was talking about Jessica. She could have been talking about Mona, or she could have been talking about whoever “A” is. And it is still possible that Mona is still alive and still “A.” (I still think that would have been an epic and far more believable twist!)

When Mike says, “Nobody’s giving me orders anymore” it indicates he had been taking orders from someone. Lately, many things seem to point to the possibility of Mike being A. But what if he was working for “A?” What if he has been doing a sort of “Toby move” where he works for “A” so he can protect Mona? Or Aria even? Anything is possible in Rosewood. (Even the stupidest of things.) Whatever he meant by that statement, it’s clear he is working with someone he doesn’t want Aria to know about. I suspect he knows Mona is still alive and he brings her things that she may want or need. That or he may be working with “A” and brings “A” things. Or Mona and “A” are the same? Who knows?

Here is my best friend’s theory: “Mona isn’t dead. She’s A and never stopped being A. But I think Mike was dating her because he is working for Ali. And Ali was trying to bring Mona down. And now he is visiting Aly in hopes they can still stop Mona.” (Again, I wish this theory had been true. It would have been way more awesome than what did happen.)

Thanks for reading! Let me know if you need anything! Like seriously. I’m here for you!

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You’re Calling Me as I Am to New Wine

Have you ever read the Psalms or Ecclesiastes? What about Job? Have you paid attention to the words Jesus prayed in the Garden of Gethsemane? I don’t know that we’ll ever see anything more honest or raw than these words. That is unless we’re brave enough to be as honest and raw with our own prayers. For some reason, there’s a common misbelief among believers that we can’t be honest with God or each other. We can’t share our real feelings. Our hard feelings. Our questions and our doubts. Ask any Christian leader or figure if they’ve ever hidden their feelings from God and others. They will admit they have. I know because every true Christian leader I’ve ever followed has shared the same story. At times in our lives, we’re afraid to be honest. We’re afraid to share our feelings, questions, and doubts. Why is that? Why do we have this impulsive need to answer, “I’m blessed and highly favored” when asked how we’re doing? When the truth is we don’t feel blessed and we certainly don’t feel favored? We’re human. We don’t like being vulnerable and transparent. It leaves us feeling exposed and open to attack, criticism, abandonment, you name it… but what if we stopped fearing the vulnerable and transparent? What if instead of being afraid, we were hopeful? What if we were honest and real and believed that we would be loved and accepted and held in that? I think… no. I know we’d all be better off for it. Think about it. David is a man after God’s own heart. Solomon is the wisest man. Job is known for His extreme faith even in extreme loss. Jesus is Jesus. Perfect and without sin. God Himself sent to earth to save us.

You might be thinking, “Come on Brittany, those people are thousands of years dead. And are we even sure their stories are true? What if it’s all a story and not history?” That’s fair. I’ll allow your doubt and skepticism here and counter you with a modern and personal example. Let me warn you first. If you don’t actually want an answer to your prayers, then don’t pray. Because like it or not, God will answer. When He does it’s up to you to respond or not.
About a month or two ago, I felt God asking me to do something I wouldn’t have chosen to do myself. So, I was honest with Him. “I don’t want to do this. If you want me to, I’m gonna need you to have someone directly ask me about it. I’ll take that as Your sign.” A week or more later, someone directly asked me about it. So, now I’m doing the thing.
A few weeks ago, I wrote out several pages worth of frustration into my journal. I was brutal and honest and raw. I did not hold back. I felt like I was doing all the talking and all the work, while God sat back and watched. He was providing, don’t get me wrong, and I told Him I was grateful for it. That was and is true. Still, I felt like God kept asking me to do the big things that required a lot out of me, but was doing the bare minimum on His end. I journaled about this for a couple of days. I know God is a good God. I know He loves me and provides for me. I also know He doesn’t have to do what I want Him to do. I know that His way is always better than my way. That said, I have trust issues. And sometimes I find it hard to believe God wants to bless me when I’ve spent the past several years not knowing if or when or how my daily needs would be met. I know He loves me. I know He always provides. I know that over and over again the Bible calls us to worry about today’s provision today and worry about tomorrow tomorrow. It would be nice to have some cushion though. It’d be nice to know if something happens tomorrow, then I’ll be covered. I understand I have it a lot better than most of the world does. I know I am blessed. And I know that if He wanted to, then God could provide more for me, but He hasn’t. And sometimes I feel like He doesn’t want to. Sometimes I feel like He cares, but not as much on this side of Heaven as He does in Heaven. Does that make any sense at all?
I journaled all these feelings out and got super specific. I was honest and raw and real. Over the next several days, God answered my prayers. I didn’t know it then, but it started on Sunday when the pastor asked our worship leader to sing a song she wrote called “You’re Calling Me.” At first, I liked it because I like our worship leader and have yet to dislike anything she sings, especially if she wrote it. But then she (Shelby, who doubles as my best friend) and I were talking to some friends at church about “plan B’s.” I said I didn’t have one and I was fine with that. She reminded me I have a CDL, so bus driving is technically my Plan B. I responded with an emphatic, “NO!” to that. It’s never been my plan to go back to bus driving after leaving in summer 2020. God likes to laugh in the face of our plans, but I’m getting ahead of myself.
Most mornings, I go to YouTube and watch/listen to the saved recording of our worship service from the week. Every day I was listening to Shelby sing “You’re Calling Me.” On Friday, it was stuck in my head and I was struck by a line that says, “You can do whatever you want to do. Whatever it is I’ll do whatever you ask me to.” That got some good journaling out of me because I was singing it, but I wasn’t sure if I meant it.
A little while later, a song by FM Static called, “Take Me As I Am” played over my shuffled liked songs on Spotify. I was struck by the lines, “I was too scared to start now I’m too scared to let go.” Could that be for me? Am I too scared to start now but will one day never want to let go?
Later that same day, a third song struck me. “New Wine” by Hillsong popped into my head. So, I listened to it and was caught by the line, “When I trust You I don’t need to understand.” ’nuff said.
Y’all, when I say God had me journaling my heart out for days after this, I mean it! It’s like I couldn’t stop. I was still caught on the feelings I’d had before, but I was also struck by a new faith and a new trust. I’m not made over yet, but I’m being made over and I have further proof of it.
Remember how I said I wasn’t planning to bus drive ever again? And how God laughs at our plans? And how if you don’t actually want the answer, then don’t pray, because He will answer? Yeah… well… I’ve been driving for UberEats and DoorDash for a few years now. In the summer, I took it on as my only source of income. I was loving it. Then, for the fifteenth time that day and at least the fiftieth time that week, I drove past a school bus on Tuesday. It was a little over a week after my emphatic “NO!” to bus driving being my “plan B.” Surprise, Surprise. God used this bus to say, “That’s the answer to your prayers.”
“Are you sure?” I asked. He didn’t answer. I knew. “Aww, man… Okay…” So, I finished the delivery I was on and went straight to the bus station.
I grumbled the whole way there. “If You want me to do this, You’re gonna have to make it abundantly clear,” I prayed.
And guess what. HE DID. I went in and no less than five people asked if I was coming back. The station manager offered me the station computer to apply immediately. The hiring manager told them to interview me on the spot. I was hired the next day, went through the hiring process the next few days, and started the very next workday. It was the fastest process I’ve ever experienced. Even the station manager was surprised it happened so quickly. God made it abundantly clear He wanted me to work there again. He made it abundantly clear He is in the business of answering prayer and providing in big and insane ways.
So, why did I share all this? Why have I written yet another insanely long blog post that maybe no one will read? Because I care about you! Because I want you to know you’re not alone. I want you to know that no matter how long we’ve been in church (my whole life) and saved (since I was six) we all wonder and question and doubt. We all ask God for another way. We all ask if He’s even listening. Seriously, read the Psalms. David was a man after God’s own heart and asked quite a few times, “Why are you ignoring me? Why aren’t you listening?” God doesn’t ignore us. And He always listens. He always provides and He always answers. We have to listen and we have to respond even when we don’t want to. Even today God wants us to be honest with Him. He wants us to run to Him and cling to Him and face our fears and worries head-on. He’s willing to hold our feelings, answer questions, and even provide signs of what He wants from us. Three songs and a school bus told me He was listening and providing. What is it He’s using to speak to you? Are you listening? Do you need a sign? God is willing to prove Himself, especially when you’re honest. Thomas doubted Jesus was Jesus, so He let him touch His wounds. A father in the Gospels admitted, “I believe. Help me with my unbelief” and Jesus healed the man’s son as a sign the father’s faith wasn’t in the wrong place. Be open. Be honest. Be real. Be raw. God is big. Bigger than you’ll ever know. He can handle your feelings. He can handle your honesty. He is listening and answering every day!

Thanks for reading! Let me know if you need anything! Like seriously. I’m here for you!

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Who’s in the barrel? (2021 Thoughts Added)

Warning: This post contains Pretty Little Liars spoilers. If you haven’t watched the whole show, then proceed with caution.

A little note: In August 2014, I started watching Pretty Little Liars. That November, I started blogging about it until it ended in 2017. I haven’t watched it since, but people are still reading my posts in 2021. So, I’ve decided to add thoughts and comments based on the feelings and opinions I have in 2021. Because you’re reading this now, I want to thank you! Tbh, after the disappointment of the series finale, I felt like I wasted time writing these posts. Because you’re reading this, it doesn’t feel like a waste anymore. So, thanks!

(Unless otherwise noted, parenthesis indicate thoughts from 2021)

**originally posted on January 23, 2015. Republished on March 16, 2021. Yes, a Tuesday, in honor of the show originally airing on Tuesdays.**


What’s in the barrel? That’s the question on every Pretty Little Liar’s mind right now. We all have theories and arguments, but I think we can all agree on one thing: There is a body in that barrel. The two most talked-about theories are Mona and Officer Holbrook. After talking to a friend about it, I think it’s Holbrook. I think there’s an equal possibility that it would be Mona or that it could be a major new plot twist and be someone else. Maybe that random girl, Sarah, whose posse came to talk to our own Pretty Little Liars that one time. So, let’s talk about the possibilities.

It’s Mona. Okay, maybe it is Mona. Maybe, for once, the PLL writers decided to make things “easy” and have it be as simple as it sounds. Maybe “A” found out that Mona found out who (s)he is and decided to get rid of her. (I did not want this to be true and I’m so glad it wasn’t.)

It’s Holbrook. As my friend, Courtney, said, “Whenever someone goes missing for no reason, they end up dead.” This might be the truest statement ever made about Pretty Little Liars. Alison is the only Rosewood resident to ever go missing and then come back. Based on past events, it is more than likely that Holbrook is dead and in that barrel. Even if he’s not the one in the barrel, it’s still likely that he is dead. (Whatever did happen to Holbrook? I can’t remember anything about him.)

It’s Sarah. Someone recently mentioned the group of four friends who heard about the liars and went to talk to them because they had a friend disappear at the same time as Alison was never explained. Marlene recently said that by the end of the show, all the random subplots we’ve seen would be explained. (That was a lie. So many subplots, including the barrel, were never explained. I googled it. An interview with Marlene says it was a random corpse. Was that explained? Did I miss that? That was stupid.) Maybe this will be one of the ways she’ll connect that story to the main plot? Who knows? I don’t think that would happen at this point in the story, but it would make a pretty good plot twist. If it’s not Mona or Holbrook in the barrel, the plot twist would have to be as big and random as this theory.

2021 Thoughts: I’m gonna have to check to see if I wrote about the barrel again in another episode. I was convinced Eddie Lamb was in the barrel. I don’t remember what happened to him now. I do remember he disappeared because he had information for Aria and Ezra. The barrel would’ve been the perfect story.

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My Theory on Jason DeLaurentis (2021 Thoughts Added)

Warning: This post contains Pretty Little Liars spoilers. If you haven’t watched the whole show, then proceed with caution.

A little note: In August 2014, I started watching Pretty Little Liars. That November, I started blogging about it until it ended in 2017. I haven’t watched it since, but people are still reading my posts in 2021. So, I’ve decided to add thoughts and comments based on the feelings and opinions I have in 2021. Because you’re reading this now, I want to thank you! Tbh, after the disappointment of the series finale, I felt like I wasted time writing these posts. Because you’re reading this, it doesn’t feel like a waste anymore. So, thanks!

(Unless otherwise noted, parenthesis indicate thoughts from 2021)

**originally published January 21, 2015. Republished March 9, 2021. Yes, a Tuesday, in honor of the show originally airing on Tuesdays.**

When I started this blog, my plan was not to write about who could be “A,” but instead who probably isn’t “A.” After tonight’s episode, a theory came to me that I can’t shake and I want to write about it, so I am! I read earlier (unfortunately I can’t remember where) that Marlene King allegedly tweeting something like “You’ll feel sorry for “A” when you find out who he/she is.” (Was this about Mona? CeCe/Charles? Alex? Because yes, I felt bad for Mona, even a little for CeCe, but definitely not for Alex.) While watching tonight’s episode, I thought of an interesting, often visited, theory. Jason is “A.” (Obviously, I was wrong.)
In an interview, Marlene said only one fan has ever figured out who “A” is. In another interview, she clarified that it wasn’t so much “who” the fan suspected that was unusual, but the “how and why.” (I don’t see how this was possible. Not because the fan figured it out, but because there were too many loose ends and plot holes for Marlene to have had any kind of a plan for who A was. That is, unless she was specifically talking about Cece’s A and not the ultimate A.) So, who’s to say it’s not Jason? He’s had major connections to four of the five liars and has been scarce in some episodes and fully there in other episodes. To me, it makes sense that he very likely could be “A.” In this post, I’ll list as many facts about him as I can think of that make me suspect him.

The last thing we knew, Jason claimed that he could not remember any relevant details about the night Alison disappeared and Bethany was killed. After the incident, as he told Aria, he woke up to a note saying, “I know what you did.” One would suspect that Jason didn’t do anything, but that “A” planted the note so he would feel guilty. How do we know the real work of “A” wasn’t that Jason was showing Aria the note so he could throw the suspicion off of himself? He also didn’t show up at Alison’s funeral. He may or may not have a good reason for that, but odds are whatever his reason may be, it’s not a good one. His sister had been allegedly murdered and he couldn’t even show up. Why? Was he the one who killed her? Or, did he know that she wasn’t dead? Either way, it would take some inside scoops to know that information.

He has close connections with four of the five Liars. First, he’s Alison’s brother. He always seems to take second place in the eyes of his parents compared to her. He always seems to speak of her in a jealous tone. Second, he is Spencer’s half-brother. Third, he continues to seem to have a thing for Aria. He even kissed her in season two. If Jason were “A,” it would explain why the worst thing that generally happens to her is constant attacks on her relationship with Ezra. She did choose him over Jason. Fourth, Jason now has connections with Hanna through her mother.

The N.A.T. Club: Jason DiLaurentis was one of the founding members of the N.A.T. Club. This club was created for the sole purpose of watching and filming unsuspecting girls for entertainment. (Did we ever get answers about the NAT Club? I’m pretty sure that was one of the many loose ends never tied up. There was always something that didn’t add up about that club.) “A” is known for filming and photographing everyone in Rosewood, especially the Liars. If he is “A,” it would give more explanation for the pictures Spencer and Emily found in Jason’s tool shed of Aria sleeping. And, speaking of the N.A.T. club, he is the only founding member who is still alive. Coincidence or convenience? You decide.

Evidence? Most of the “evidence” anyone in Rosewood has found has allegedly pointed at Alison and Spencer. Bethany, Jessica DiLaurentis’ possible other secret children, is dead. If that is true, then one of Jason’s sisters (who also got more attention from Jessica than he did) is dead. Another is in jail, and the other one is constantly framed for people’s deaths. Is that why Jason was an alcoholic drug addict in high school? Did he know about Spencer and Bethany and just want to forget about it instead of confronting anyone? Or did he graduate and become A, taunting Alison, murdering Bethany, and stalking Spencer?

Motive: Alison and Bethany got more attention from his mother than he did. So he got jealous and decided to get rid of them if he could. They were both there “that night,” they were wearing the same clothes, and they were both buried in his biological father’s backyard. Spencer receives more attention from their biological father than he ever has. It would make sense that Melissa would be stalked too. Except Melissa was dating an NAT member and she was with Ali and the other two NAT members “that night.” That could have been his way of giving her an easy way out. Or he knew she hated Alison as much as he did.
Since the days when she wore pink highlights, Aria has always been a subject of his attention. He respected her and admired her for living outside of the box. He presumably thought she was beautiful. He kissed her. He allegedly took pictures of her while she was sleeping. She seems to get less of the brunt than any of the other girls do. Could this be because he is trying to spare her?
Hanna replaced Alison as the “it girl” in school after she disappeared, maybe Jason didn’t like that? After all, Alison was his sister, even if he possibly tried to kill her. Finally, Emily also seems to get fewer attacks from “A,” than Alison, Spencer, and Hanna. Could it be because “A,” aka Jason, doesn’t have anything against her accept the fact that she is close friends with Alison and Spencer?

My theory is likely faulty, but I didn’t do any research as I have for my previous posts. Even if it’s not the right theory, it’s a pretty interesting one. Anyway, tell me what you think! Could I be right or am I wrong? You decide!

P.S. I just remembered that Emily and Jason were connected for a little while in season (I think) 3!

**2021 thoughts & opinions** Okay, but why wasn’t Jason A? What was his story anyway? I don’t even remember. He was super sketchy. And, I totally would’ve supported a reveal that pinned it all on Jason! I would’ve felt bad for him. I would’ve been impressed. And I wouldn’t have regretted putting so much time into the show.

Thanks for reading! Let me know if you need anything! Like seriously. I’m here for you!

Find me on Twitter and Instagram – @ogbrittanyalex

Find my podcasts “The Mask; Her Aid” and “Obsessive Girl Podcast.”

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PLL s05e14: Recap and Review (2021 Thoughts Added)

Warning: This post contains Pretty Little Liars spoilers. If you haven’t watched the whole show, then proceed with caution.

A little note: In August 2014, I started watching Pretty Little Liars. That November, I started blogging about it until it ended in 2017. I haven’t watched it since, but people are still reading my posts in 2021. So, I’ve decided to add thoughts and comments based on the feelings and opinions I have in 2021. Because you’re reading this now, I want to thank you! Tbh, after the disappointment of the series finale, I felt like I wasted time writing these posts. Because you’re reading this, it doesn’t feel like a waste anymore. So, thanks!

(Unless otherwise noted, parenthesis indicate thoughts from 2021)

**originally published January 7, 2015. Republished March 2, 2021. Yes, a Tuesday, in honor of the show originally airing on Tuesdays.**


Tonight, the second half of Pretty Little Liars’ fifth season premiered. The episode takes place three months after Mona Vanderwaal was allegedly murdered. All eyes are turned suspiciously at Alison DiLaurentis. Even her four closest friends, or maybe ex-friends, suspect that Alison killed Mona. No one can prove it though. Both Alison’s dad, Kenneth, and her brother, Jason, swear she was with them at the time of the crime.

Rosewood’s four little liars refuse to believe Alison’s alibi. So Emily and Spencer decide to do whatever it takes to prove Alison’s guilt. They drop in at the DiLaurentis home where they find and confront Jason. At first, he refuses to admit he wasn’t with Alison, but then Spencer plays the “I’m your sister too” card. Jason’s silence says everything. After Emily and Spencer leave, Jason confronts Alison about where she was. Alison swears she is being framed for Mona’s murder but doesn’t answer otherwise.
Later, Emily and Spencer go to Mona’s house and plant false evidence against Alison. While looking for a place to leave strands of hair from Ali’s hairbrush, Spencer finds a hidden camera in the air vents. She suspects Mona set it up for evidence and safety.

After the girls tell Hanna and Aria about their find, Hanna goes to Mona’s mom and suggests that she ask the police to search her home one more time. She claims Mona had mentioned to her that she had wanted to set up hidden cameras around the house. Mrs. Vanderwaal follows Hanna’s advice and the police do find the hidden camera. On the camera, they see that Mona was dragged down the stairs and around the house by a blonde that looks suspiciously like Alison. The police decide the video is proof enough that Alison was the murderer and call Jason in for more questioning. This time, Jason admits that he lied about Alison being with him and that the person in the video does look like it could be Alison.

In the last few minutes of the episode, we see the police pull up at the DiLaurentis home while Alison is inside. Scared, she tries to run away, but the other four liars stop her in the yard and don’t let her pass. She argues that they are wrong. She did not kill Mona and that by letting the police arrest her, they are giving A exactly what (s)he wants. The girls don’t listen though and Alison is arrested. The final scene with the girls shows fireworks that leave a giant “A” in the sky to scare them. The doubt is obvious in the girls’ eyes; they seem to second guess their decision to believe that Alison is “A.”

Also throughout the episode, Aria worries about her future. None of the schools she’s applied to have accepted her. Suspected that “A” is the reason she’s not getting into the schools, she goes to Caleb for help. She wants him to hack into the school systems to see why exactly she was rejected.

We see Mike react, or not react, to Mona’s alleged death. For the most part, he seems stone-cold, almost as if he doesn’t care, but then he has a talk with Aria and admits that he is hurting. He hates seeing the whole town, including Aria and the girls, pretending that they liked and knew Mona. They didn’t know her at all. Aria asks Mike to tell her about the real Mona one day and Mike stares blankly at her before starting to cry. As Aria walks away, she hears Mike’s sobs for Mona and stops at the exit of the living room to cry with and for him.

Finally, we see the Young family has decided to revoke their decision to let Spencer go free for Bethany Young’s murderer. However, Alison’s alleged murdering of Mona causes the police to believe she also killed Bethany. So Spencer is set free, while Alison is locked up in a prison cell.

**2021 Thoughts** Was Pretty Little Liars as ridiculous as this post makes it seem? Like this particular episode sounds pretty interesting, but my goodness the drama! A fake death? An alleged death? And a proven death? Or wait… now I’m confused… Am I remembering correctly that Bethany Young wasn’t killed? She was actually kept in the dollhouse? Or was that a third suspiciously similar-looking blonde chick? OMGosh. What was wrong with this show? How did we all get sucked in? This is ridiculous! The things I’m remembering while reading these posts are ridiculous and hilarious!

Thanks for reading! Let me know if you need anything! Like seriously. I’m here for you!

Find me on Twitter and Instagram – @ogbrittanyalex

Find my podcasts “The Mask; Her Aid” and “Obsessive Girl Podcast.”

You can also buy my book “The Mask; Her Aid” by Brittany Alexandria on Amazon for Kindle.